Today is one of the worst days I can ever expect.I can't tell you shy cuz I'm just afraid that some people may like you know,spread or something.So that's that.Totally pointless?Yes I know.
Anyways,did anybody watch 'Girls Out Loud' yesterday on Channel 5?OMG!XiaXue actually did the nose job lors!The camera crew recorded the whole operation and it was kinda gross because of all the blood and the opening up of the nose.They actually let us see them cut the nose open.I don't think I'll go for plastic surgery next time.I mean like eww...But oh well,that's just my point of view.But come on,imagine some foreign silicon item implanted in your body,have to think about that the next time you squeeze your nose.Haha.That's all peeps!

♥ 7:58 PM

Alrighty,this Topic Chironicles thingie is like wells,certain subjects.Ranging from Suicide to cheese.I'll talk about the subject.Got it?Even if you don't get it,just read.
This time,I'm going to do the subject Suicide.
Why do people,teens want to commit suicide?Most teens interviewed after making a suicide attempt say that they did it because they were trying to escape from a situation that seemed impossible to deal with or to get relief from really bad thoughts or feelings.Some people who try to end their lifes may be trying to run away from feelings of hurt,loss or rejection.Their feelings may range from anger,guilt,worry,some may also be afraid to disappoint their family and friends.They feel like they have not choice but to die.Suicidal people may also feel unloved,like nobody cares about them.Yes,we do sometimes feel overwhelmed and some of us may have thought about suicide before.But we may not have meant it when we felt that way...Unfortunately,for those who really mean it,they are suffering from depression.Yes,the root of suicides is usually depression.
Depression leads people to think more negatively.People with depression tend to focus solely on negative things.Those with severe depression are unable to see the ood outcome of things.Depression seems to distort things and that is why suicidal people see suicide as the way out.What they don't realise is that suicide is the permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Some suicides are planned and some are not.Impulsive suicides,unplanned suicides may happen in a wave of emotion,for example,a sudden breakup or an unplanned pregnancy.Often in a situation like this,acts as the final straw for someone who is already depressed.
Some people who attempt suicide mean to die but some don't.For some, a suicide attempt is a way to express deep emotional pain. They can’t say how they feel, so, for them, attempting suicide feels like the only way to get their message across. Sadly, even when a suicide attempt is a cry for help and the person doesn’t mean to die, there’s no way to control it. Many people who really didn’t mean to kill themselves end up dead or critically ill.
Girls attempt suicide more often than guys but guys are about 4 times more likely to succeed when they try to kill themselves.This is because guys tend to use more deadly methods such as guns.
There are often signs that someone may be thinking about or planning a suicide attempt. Here are some of them:
talking about suicide or death in general
talking about "going away"
referring to things they "won’t be needing," and giving away possessions
talking about feeling hopeless or feeling guilty
pulling away from friends or family and losing the desire to go out
having no desire to take part in favorite things or activities
having trouble concentrating or thinking clearly
experiencing changes in eating or sleeping habits
engaging in self-destructive behavior (drinking alcohol, taking drugs, or cutting, for example.)
If you have been thinking about suicide,get help right away.DON'T EVER DO IT.YOU WILL REGRET IT IN YOU DYING MOMENTS...TRUST ME.If you do know someone who is suicidal,talk to him or her and show him or her that there is someone who he or she can turn to.Reach out to him or her.Next,tell a responsible grown up such as a teacher.Even if he or she swears you to secrecy,tell.You friend's life could depend on it.
Please never commit suicide,never never never.You hurt everyone who knows you,including your family and friends.If you think nobody cares about you,you're wrong.There is someone...you've just not met that person yet.Hang on...live life to the fullest as once you're gone,there's just no second chance at all.
That's all for my first Topic Chironicle.How is it?Please comment so I can improve on my next post.Thanks and bwye!
Thanks to- http://www.kidshealth.org/teen/your_mind/feeling_sad/suicide.html

♥ 4:23 PM

This week has not been very eventful actually.Not much really.(I know both statements mean the same thing.)I can only recall going to school like every other kid in Singapore.
The other day I was watching MTV 'Made' and they were showing this girl who wants to be a skater gal.Just then,I remember that I had wanted to skateboard like 2 years ago.But my parents would not allow me to get a skateboard cuz they "Don't want you to get hurt."No pain no gain right?Yea,say that to my parents.Hey I'm not angry with them I just think that they should let me learn skateboarding.If you never try you never know.I think that's all for my Life part,I think I'll just post a 'Topic Chironicle'.For those wondering what the hell that is,read it,I'm posting it up in a seperate post.(Psst,look up.)

♥ 4:11 PM

I am not happy about the way people think of emos.They know this is emo.
"Wear eyeliner,talk about death=Emo."Too bad,you're wrong.
Emo is not just about that.F.Y.I.Emos are deep and you just don't understand how they feel.They talk to you happily,they laugh with you but you don't know that deep inside,they just wanna scream and run around,tearing their hair out.
Of course,there are people who look emo.Here's the bottomline,they may not necessary be a true emo.They are another kind of dudes.They are "Posers".Or "Poseurs" if you like.Yes ladies and gentlemen.This does not only apply to Emos.There are Posers in Goths,Skatelads etc.etc.too.Those Posers think they're Emos but they are not.Too bad.
Now for mythbusters.I do know some people and they told me this."Emos don't like cheese."I almost choked on my burger at that time.I wanted to reply but my sore throat interferred.So I'll say what I wanted to say on my blog.Hello,who told you Emos don't like cheese.That guy must
1)Hate Emos,but likes cheese.That's why he wants to protect his cheese.
or
2)Be a Poser and made up that myth.
The truth is 'Wrong.Emos may or may not like cheese.If that person is an Emo but he likes cheese,then what?Who is there to tell him not to like cheese.'

After me raving about Emos,now I'm going to eleborate about my new mantra.
LOVE ME OR HATE ME.
I decided just yesterday to go with this mantra.Yes.I'm going to act the way I want,I'm going to talk the way I want.And I don't care if you don't like it.Love me or hate me.It's better to be hated for what you are than be loved for what you're not.I'm so sick of following people,tailor made to suit their tastes.I'm going to be myself and I DON'T CARE.Yes,so everyone...watch out.I've wasted last year being someone else (maybe sometimes) so I'm not gonna let this year go...

♥ 9:04 PM

A scenario I'm gonna paint out for you.
Cast:Helen,Holly,Fred,Yulgar,Sam and Me.(Not real names)
Ok,Yulgar said something about me which is well,wai,NOT straight and Helen reported it to me.I didn't know it until then.Ok,so Helen told me and Holly spreads it to Fred,Yulgar and Sam's group.You know,their group.When they heard about it,they got angry and as a result,all of them hate Helen.
Whose fault is it?Not to be insensitive or whatever,but don't you think Holly should not have told them?Don't get angry at me for typing this but it IS a fact and you can't just deny it.If you're Holly (you know who you are) I don't mean I hate you I'm just pointing out the fact so please don't get angry with me.
As for Fred and the rest.(Again NOT real names)What Helen told me concerns ME.If you say anything about ME I have a right to know.If you don't want ME to know,you shouldn't have said anything about ME in the first place.Today I think someone called Helen a 'Betrayer' during P.E lesson.You know who you are.She did not betray anyone.What,did she spread around someone's DEEPEST DARKESS secret?I don't think so.The use of 'Betrayer' is wrong.Use some other word.But after all Helen did not do anything wrong.
You guys better treat Helen better.Seriously.Treat her wrongly and down my friendship-point-chart you go.Trust me I can be your best friend but if you wrong any of my friends or treat me badly,I can hold a grudge against you for life.I don't take it lightly.The peace loving person I am,I can be warring too,do NOT take me for an extremely laid back person.Think about it.If you're not happy,comment in my C-Box.

That's the scenario,that's all for the negative parts now.Time for some junk.Let's first start of with some Gerard Way.

Haha.Okay.Erm...What was it I wanted to do again?Wait let me think...
I just came back from dinner and after some thinking,I think that there's nothing for me to write about.No topics.No subjects.Nothing.I'm blank and I don't want the post to be too long.Oh well,at least you've got a Gerard Way pic.

♥ 6:35 PM

Haha time to say stuff that are not really about my day.I think I wanna rave about MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!!!!Omg!I freaking LOVE MCR!I love I love I love I love I love!!!

My dear prince of darkness (lol).Don't you looove MCR?Who could hate them?Well,yes there are some wackos out there who hate their music to the inest CORE but then,there's a reason why they're called wackos.I don't understand how they could not like My Chemical Romance.
Moving on,do you know where I am now,updating my blog?I'm in school!The school library.Totally random.Next topic.
Have you read yesterday's post?Yea huh,the PREVIOUS post that is.I said that the science teacher was looking at me like some strange girl (which by the way,I am).Today she asked me a question and I CAN'T even ANSWER it STRAIGHT!Which just proves that my science is going
d
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Or on the other hand,I don't think so.Haha,boost up on that self-confidence milo bar gurl!You: o.O"
Hui Juan was sick and didn't come to school today and yesterday actually.I hope she comes back tomorrow.Most probably I think.Ya.I.Think.Think.Think.
Ok,I think that's all,left about 2 minutes in the computer booking!Bye!

♥ 1:36 PM

Hello mai darrllinggssss,I know I havn't updated for long but still...wat can I do?I'm not really allowed to use the computer.Again.Sigh...
So school opened on 3rd January 2007,Wednesday but I didn't go thanks to my friendly neighbourhood virus.I don't know why but I just got it suddenly.So I missed the 2 day Sec 1 Orientation,I'm a councillor you see.Dunno if missing it is a good or bad thing but Evelyn says, "I wish I can take your place."Haha,guess I'll never know.
Yup,missed 2 days of school and sooo behind.And you know what?I got one of the lowest scores in the first Science test,Chemistry.It's a what,Assesment Test of something like that.Oh my,what a way to begin the new year.I got a "EXTREMELY" high score of 7.5/11.And I thought I could get full marks cuz it's "SO" easy.Now the teacher thinks I'm a Toopid Little Gurl who loves Failing Subjects.Yea yea,wadever.As long as I don't fail the overall and get A1.Yups,that's my aim.
Ai yo,now in school I sometimes (most of the time) feel so 'odd one out'.My friend say I look lost.A couple of other people say that too.Really meh???But now he says he joking lol.(I I.M him now.)Lol dont take it the wrong way.
Also another thing,nowadays you know,I keep thinking about people and how I have treated them...always feel like saying sorry,but don't know who to say to.So,to all the people I have offended,I want to say a very big sorry.
SORRY
Hope all those people accept my apology.Haha,now I don't think I offended anyone.Now I think I'm just writing that for fun.Ha.But really,anyway if there REALLY is anyone I insulted sorry.(But I still don't think I did.Hahaho.)
That's all I'm writing,quite a long post,make up for the lost weeks,or month if you like.Ok,bye bye my frns!Good morning/afternoon/night/day/wadeveryoulike.Bye!

♥ 8:58 PM